A Hawaiian vacation would have been so nice. I had planned to be there this very day. But it was cancelled because of Covid. We planned this vacation a year ago and saved all year long in hopes that just maybe it would be possible. But the condo there cancelled our reservations. This is just one of many things we cancelled because of this crazy virus.
Time just keeps marching on and I’m still waiting. I’m waiting for normal. I’m waiting for a time where I can plan something and actually have it come to pass. Even the littlest thing gets cancelled or postponed. For example: the fires, along with smoke, have been so bad in Southern California and the whole West coast, we haven’t been able to do activities outside. Where I live we still can’t sit inside restaurants because of Covid, yet it has been too smoky to sit outside. Hard conditions to wait in.
However, I’ve noticed there is something happening in me more than waiting. I am learning to walk differently. I’m actually learning to walk humbly with my God. I cannot count on what’s worked in the past. I cannot count on the plans I made a year ago or even yesterday’s plans. It all seems to get cancelled. This is causing me to be humble.
Dear Jesus: I’m so tired because my plans just don’t seem to pan out 3/4 of the time. Please help me learn to walk with You. You know the future, so You know what plans will work and what won’t. I’m tired of being wrong. Please take my hand and lead the way. I’m willing to follow You. I’m done trying to lead.
God’s Word to Us: It is a hard transition from walking in your own wisdom to change and follow My wisdom. I do have a way out of this mess, but you will need to walk closely with Me and do My will. Follow Me.
“No, O people, the LORD has told you what is good,
and this is what he requires of you:
to do what is right, to love mercy,
and to walk humbly with your God.”
My Heart’s Cry was to ask Jesus for help because my ways just weren’t working anymore. I am way more humble now than I was a year ago when everything seemed to work out well. Thankfully God loves us and desires us to walk with Him.
The Bible says “those who wait upon the Lord will renew their strength. Those who delight in the law of the Lord, meditating on it day and night, they are like trees planted along the riverbank, bearing fruit each season.” So as I wait, my desire is for God to lead me to wait wisely.
Recently I’ve been compelled to give up things that are worldly habits. I feel like our trials this year have grown much too serious for me to do things as usual. This verse reminds me of what the world’s ways are.
“Do not love this world nor the things it offers you,
for when you love the world,
you do not have the love of the Father in you.
For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure,
a craving for everything we see,
and pride in our achievements and possessions.
These are not from the Father, but are from this world.
And this world is fading away,
along with everything that people crave.
But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever.”
I know that as I give up some habits like nightly streaming shows and favorite caffeinated drinks, I am turning away from worldly pleasures. It’s a struggle and I do feel like emotionally I’m in a desert. The temptations are real, just like Satan tempted Jesus in the desert. The desert is a lonely place. Constantly I’m battling filling the emptiness with things that will soothe me (physical pleasure) or even some excitement in life (craving for everything I see).
But I feel like the Lord is saying walk away with Me. Leave all this behind. Once you are done with the withdrawals of these addictions, I have something new to show you. Come spend more time alone with Me.
So I have a decision: Do I push to do something I want to do? Or do I wait until God has shown me His heart and invites me into His work? Oh Lord, let my heart do the latter. Let me wait with patience and grace. Let me be willing to walk along side of You by doing what is right, loving mercy and walking humbly with You God.
My question to you: Do you feel you have learned to Humbly walk with our God in 2020? I’d love to hear your thoughts, comments or questions.
Isaiah 40:31 & Psalm 1:2-3
I John 2:15-17