Why You Haven’t Seen Me.

One year ago, I published my last blog post. I was beginning to experience a daily decrease in energy. I taught the last of my sewing classes and housewife classes last October and had to cancel my November classes. From then on I felt my energy gradually decreasing for months. I dragged myself to my doctors and they ran many many tests. Changes were made to my medications. Yet, I got worse. At my lowest point, I couldn’t think, drive or take care of my family. I slept a lot and had little to no energy.

Over the summer, I’ve been slowly climbing back up from my lowest place. The doctors have tried medication change after medication change and now I’m finally beginning to feel better. I’m not back to normal yet, but I can take care of my family if I do most of the work early in the day.

During this difficult time I have seen God’s provision for our family’s needs. My adult son was laid off a couple of weeks before I really needed him. He’s been my cab driver, shopper, our grubhub and has done various household tasks like vacuuming and dishes. He’s done this for our family with such a gracious and willing heart. I am so thankful to him and to God who knew I needed him. My mother came out to help me this Summer, which was also a blessing. Additionally, a handful of friends from church prepared meals for me and my family. I am so thankful to my family and my church family for their help and support.

One of the things I’ve learned from this is that God is faithful. He’s our Jehovah Jireh which means “God is my provider.” Last Fall He helped me reduce some of my commitments. That was a painful process because I wanted to write and I wanted to teach classes. But I obeyed when He said to stop. Then He put people in the right places to be by my side during this time. Even our homeschooling was covered. I had excellent teachers, through an online platform, doing lessons with my student. God was covering all my weak spots, all my needs.

“And this same God who takes care of me
will supply all your needs from his glorious riches,
which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.“
Philippians 4:19

My Heart’s Cry for you is to look to your own life to see God’s provision there. Is He preparing you for something new? Is He saying “stop” to some of your previous activities or goals? Follow God’s lead. He knows what your life will look like 6 months from now, so trust Him as to what changes need to be made. Maybe you’re in the middle of your crisis. I want to encourage you to look around and see what provisions God has made to cover you during this time. Praise Him for them. Remember, it won’t always be like this.

Here’s what I noticed during the months I could do nothing for myself; God was busy moving some pretty big obstacles I previously could not move myself. My praise can only go to God. I can take no credit myself. I think He likes it that way. It really opened my eyes to His ability to move mountains on my family’s behalf.

I wanted to close by saying you still may not see me regularly yet as I am still getting well. I use my precious small amounts of daily energy for my family. They are my first priority. I am thankful though that on some days, when I have the strength, I can start writing my blog again. It’s something I can do from the quiet of my home.

Blessings to you all.

Kim